Bad Wolf! Bad Wolf!
Have you ever felt so confused before? It feels like I can experience a hundred emotions at the same time.
Today I am not going to blog on any specific topic. I will put up one of my articles later this week. I guess I just want to share where I am at and you are welcome to reply with your own stories.
So… what’s on my mind?! Pregnancy! My husband and I have been talking about it lately and I can’t help but wonder: when is the right time? Some people say there is never a right time… Am I too young, too emotional, too scatter-brained to have a child at 28?
I have a belly-ring, tattoo, love Thirty Seconds to Mars… does that sound like a mommy? Oh boy, I am just chatting with you as I go! What if having a baby changes my life in a way I can’t handle… When will I go for a run? When will I go on a date with my husband? What about weekends away? I guess you can still do all those things… but will it change my relationship with my husband?
Help! Haha – all mommies, advice is welcome. Not that I am pregnant or anything… Maybe when I am blessed with being pregnant, I will blog about it every week, and then other people can check and see if their week 5, 6, and so on is the same… 🙂
Okay, now I am back to experiencing a hundred emotions all at once. I want to walk in the sun, I want to go for coffee, I want to cry, I want to listen to music and be at peace, etc, etc, etc! Ha!
Crazy woman! 😉 Maybe I am just a women who runs with the wolves… have you read the book? If you are quite in touch with your artistic and spiritual self (and don’t be afraid of these ‘airy-fairy’ terms, I am a Christian girl raised in the Dutch Reformed Church!), this book will teach you valuable lessons:
“SO I say to you with affection, imagistically — be you a Black wolf, a Northern Gray, a
Southern Red, or an Arctic White — you are the quintessential instinctual criatura.
Although some might really prefer you to behave yourself and not climb all over the
furniture in joy or all over people in welcome, do it anyway. Some will draw back from
you in fear and disgust. Your lover, however, will cherish this new aspect of you — if
he or she be the right lover for you. Some people will not like it if you take a sniff at
everything to see what it is. And for heaven’s sakes, no lying on your back with your
feet up in the air. Bad girl. Bad wolf. Bad dog. Right? Wrong. Go ahead. Enjoy
yourself.” (Clarissa Pinkola Estes in Women Who Run With the Wolves)